One thing leads to another

So today we stopped at Claire's today to buy one pair of earrings, for my halloween costume... we ended up leaving with a bill of $80! How does this keep happening to me? Oh well, I got some AMAZING stuff, of which you will now see... get ready!!!
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Black choker with pink bow and studded bracelete

random necklace

black and orange tiara

Zebra ears (for a friend, inside joke)

Checkered glasses and skull hair clips

different earrings...lol

Okay so I'm really upset cuz life is pretty angsty right now...and I really dont LIKE angsty.

Guys, girls, close friends, distant friends, people I like, people I don't like...everyone adds to the angst in some way (including me)... I'm just tired of it (again). I dunno, too much drama happens to me and I don't know why. Too many conflicting emotions and all.... sorry I really can't get any more specific. Say one problem out loud, someone reads it, and now you have a million other problems.

Blah and mother is only making it worse by being RETARDED.....grrrrr....

On an unrelated note...I realize I really like hugs... not like girly meaningless hugs, but I mean like...extended, long, and comforting hugs. I almost feel like I live off them these days.... its a really weird turn in my personal preference, but meh. Also, I use too many of these "..." and too many alsos, anddd too many parenthetical statements. Haha, oh well?

On another note...I realize I care a lot more for my friends now than I ever have before. Like I get extra worried when friends are upset or acting strange. I used to not even notice let alone care too much... now its like the most important thing to me. I suppose thats a good thing tho... haha more of that beautiful ellipsis!

Bleh I should probably do homework now...oh yeah and I really did pass out last night while texting, funny that :P

Random Update?

Yo duuudes, I've been a vegetarian for a really long time now haven't I...haha...I can't remember the exact days, tho I probably have it written down...its basically been a month and a half by this point... yeay? Haha I don't really feel like its an accomplishment, more like I'm finally doing what I should have been doing already.

Now if only the rest of my life could be so easy... *emo corner*

Actually, I'm in a much better mood now than I was 2 hours ago... thanks to three really good friends <3

Time to text navy boy and lay in bed till I pass out

POST #2... the fight?

So today something crazy happened...I think I got in my first fight... I mean it started out kinda jokingly, but I'm pretty sure it was more legit as time went on. Or even if it wasn't a fight, it was kinda like wrestling with your sibling, cept with someone you hate and is THANKFULLY not related to you, haha...so here's my story!

Also, of course I can't tell on her, since I obviously fought back, so ya...don't bother with that suggestion, lol... and don't forget to read the blog before this!

daisukiotaku (6:46:15 PM): so this girl on my soccer team

daisukiotaku (6:46:30 PM): made a comment of which I cannot remember, I only remember what I said

daisukiotaku (6:46:51 PM): which is, well maybe its because you look like a man

daisukiotaku (6:46:59 PM): I was joking, but she really does look like a man

daisukiotaku (6:47:04 PM): so she jumps at me and puts me in a headlock

daisukiotaku (6:47:22 PM): so I fight her back until I wriggle free, I semi-punched her in the side so she'd let go

daisukiotaku (6:47:28 PM): but then she grabs my phone and runs off with it

daisukiotaku (6:47:32 PM): and starts going through the messages

daisukiotaku (6:47:35 PM): so I chase after her

daisukiotaku (6:47:40 PM): put HER in a head lock

daisukiotaku (6:47:47 PM): wrangle her to the ground

daisukiotaku (6:47:50 PM): still holding her neck

daisukiotaku (6:47:53 PM): till she gives it back

daisukiotaku (6:48:15 PM): then I walk back and sit on the couches (this is in like the main area of our gym, its really nice with couches and shit)

daisukiotaku (6:48:28 PM): then she comes over and grabs the back of my neck, squeezing

daisukiotaku (6:48:32 PM): digging her nails into my throat

daisukiotaku (6:48:34 PM): which really hurt

daisukiotaku (6:48:47 PM): but I ignored her (even tho I was a half second away from tears cuz it hurt so much)

daisukiotaku (6:48:50 PM): so she got bored and stopped

daisukiotaku (6:49:10 PM): then maybe 20 seconds later she jumps at me again and choke holds me, agaaain

daisukiotaku (6:49:14 PM): so I dig my nails into her arm

daisukiotaku (6:49:19 PM): which gets her to let go for a second

daisukiotaku (6:49:29 PM): till she comes at me from behind with an even sronger head lock

daisukiotaku (6:49:32 PM): cept this time I cant breath

daisukiotaku (6:49:34 PM): and she says

daisukiotaku (6:49:38 PM): TAKE IT BACK OR I WONT LET GO

daisukiotaku (6:49:48 PM): and I try really really hard not to say anything to appease her

daisukiotaku (6:49:57 PM): but I couldn't really breath and it was really starting to hurt

daisukiotaku (6:50:04 PM): so I sadly had to say, I take it back I take it back!

daisukiotaku (6:50:06 PM): and ya

daisukiotaku (6:50:08 PM): then I went home

Thoughts

So today is a blog about my thoughts instead of what is actually going on...tho I will start it out with a few updates....

Today I bought MIDNIGHT hair dye (basically its black)...but I cant use it till saturday night cuz I'm getting my passport picture taken saturday. Oh wait, thats all I wanted to say on that...anyway

So you know how say you like someone...but they don't like you back... you eventually move on right? (well usually) Then you stop liking that person and when you meet up with them later on, you (hopefully) have no romantic feelings for them any more. Well I don't seem to work that way. I never noticed this until today basically, but I never stop liking people. If I actually liked someone at one point, that never goes away. I mean I may like other people more than them, hence why our relationships wouldn't work out, but I never stop liking them.

It makes sense to me. I mean assuming the person doesn't change that much, no matter how much time you spend away from someone, they're still that same person you fell for, and I would fall for them just the same. I think this contributes to why I can't hold a stable relationship, because at one point in my life I can like multiple people at the same time (I've liked 4 people all at the same time, and its probably been more than that at one point).

Some people might say, oh well you just have to wait for the right person to come along to make you stop liking other people...but why would that happen? Just cuz I've found an amazing person doesn't make other people less attractive or less cool or fun or whatever it was that I liked about them. I mean of course if I meet someone I really REALLY like and maybe love, then it would be worth ignoring all the others so I could be dedicated to that one person....but until then does that mean I have to put up with liking too many people at once? This is not an issue I can just ignore...I mean I "lead guys on" only to move on to another guy...but its not a lie! I really did like them, and I really do like the next one, and the next and the next.... I dunno this is starting to make me seem like a sorta bad person and now no one will want to date me (thank god that's already covered).

I think its a really good idea for me to take a break from boys right now...so Caitlin is probably the best thing to happen to me in a long time...and I hope more than anything else that somehow with her being the only girl I like, I can understand better what its like to commit... but meh, I'm not off to the best of starts.... we shall see how it goes...until then I promise to take extra good care of my woman <3

Thanks for reading about my rambling guys >.<

also, for future reference, I call caitlin yome, cuz that means "my woman" in Japanese

*turns the classical music up*

SHOPPING

Okay so today after soccer (which really wasn't soccer at all) I went out to Hot Topic with mother... we really just went to the mall to go costume shopping for Halloween... now I know I said I was going to be a nurse, and that that had MAJOR sex appeal, but honestly none of the costumes were appropriate enough for me to actually wear them in public (which seems a waste right?).

So yeah, new costume is really fantastic... I'll tell you I'm kinda the queen of hearts, but you wont get to see it until I take pictures for the Halloween dance at school (on the 30th).

Actually, we bought so much stuff, the bill came up to over $150... thats after a $25 discount, haha. Mother says I have to pay for half...meaning $75....meaning I'm about to become rather poor (aka broke)... but its really worth it :D

I'm in such a great moooood now...but I want it to be halloweeen alreadyyyy so I can wear my costumeeeeee *giggles*


Also, what made my day really was the lady who worked there. She was really nice and really helpful. I mean we were in the store for 45 minutes, trying on 4 different costumes, 3 pairs of shoes, and basically needing help with so many things... and yet she was beyond nice every time. In fact, when we finally bought the stuff, the store was empty, so we had a talk with her. It seems she remembers me, cuz I made a really huge purchase last year for my birthday party and stuff. Also, the lady said she was really glad to see someone like me who shopped so much at hot topic...by "someone like me" she meant that someone who looked totally normal by main stream standards (I was in soccer clothes). It was just a really great moment, because my mother admitted that the people who worked at Hot Topic were much nicer than those who worked at any other store she'd been in at the mall. I felt like I was home again, I LOVE YOU HOT TOPIC!!

P.S. they're starting a new plastic card thing, like a members card... its free to get one and every time you use it, you get points. These points add up over time, and you get cash for them. The best part is...you get 10 free points for just stopping in. They'll swipe your card even if you don't buy anything. The more points you accumulate, the higher the payback value. This'll really help me, since I'm spending hundreds of dollars there. Literally I walk in the store, look down at myself, and realize I'm wearing nothing but hot topic brand stuff.... its really funny, haha

Anyway, I really gotta get back to homework XD

Video compleeeete

Okay so yeay, I finally finished my birthday video to Seth. And yes, I finished it the day before his birthday, but geeze gimmie a break I've been busy lol

Here's the link
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xau7pf_seths-birthday-video

Also today is the day of my sleepover with Caitlin <3
Ian and her friend Shay will also be there, seriously its gunna rock

Sorry for all the short blogs, but I'm so busy these days! Plus, I've been trying to transfer all my contacts onto my new phone, and its taking hours, seriously.... Oh well!

NEW CELL PHONE!

So I have a sexy new cell phone...I'm really excited...here are pics (obviously not of my actual phone, but of the phone I got)


The awesome thing is...they said it'd take 4-5 days to activate it...well it took only 4 hours <3

So ya, I'm drooling over it...and watching The Mighty Boosh of course.

ALSO TOMORROW IS MY SLEEPOVER WITH CAITLIN hehe XD

no time to blog more, I have a present to makeee

Tadaima!

So yeah, I stopped writing letters to Seth...so now I feel like getting out my feelings through a blog again (also stuff has happened that's worthy of telling the world).

Okay so lets see...today the 10th/11th graders were taking the PSATs in the morning, so I basically didn't have to do anything in most of those classes. I got a call from Seth today too, we got to talk for 18 minutes, which was awesome. I'm getting Spaghettios for dinner...oh yeah and my THE MIGHTY BOOSH SEASONS 1-3 BOX SET CAME IN EARLY <3 It looks fantastic....

Last but not least...there's a new woman in my life and she makes me super giggly and happy in general <3 (should I link her to my blog? lol)

So yeah this is short today because I have a huge chem test tomorrow I need to study for... but YES, I'm back to blogging, rejoice! :D

Bad News

So guys...I really don't know how much I'll be blogging these days. Honestly I'm just too busy to write out stuff...also since I'm still writing letters to seth daily, that's about as much writing I feel like doing every day. So until further notice, this blog is on a sort of temporary hiatus