chemicalflirt
oh!
wait nvm
haha
HIM
*confused again*
hah
chemicalflirt
I was gunna tell you
but then I blogged about it!
HIM
okayyys
HIM
omfg
XD
chemicalflirt
lol my blog?
HIM
yush
what else would make me do that?
besides sex
chemicalflirt
haha random boy showed up and gave you a bj?
HIM
or anything gay
chemicalflirt
lol!
I hit both at once
I'm goooood
for the record... I said the "haha random boy" thing before I read his "besides sex" thing... cuz I'm psychic, haha
Sunday, February 28, 2010
FUN TIMES
Okay so I wasn't gunna blog about this, cuz I was lazy... but I might as well, cuz its EPIC...
So Saturday, I went to see this
Yeah... all thanks to Miles <3 And at this wonderful event... I got THIS
om nom nom.... lets take a bite of my delicious white chocolate VAGINA
Yeah... then I walked around shaker at night... and stayed out till 5AM... actually 5:30... epic! ^_^
So Saturday, I went to see this
Yeah... all thanks to Miles <3 And at this wonderful event... I got THIS
om nom nom.... lets take a bite of my delicious white chocolate VAGINA
Yeah... then I walked around shaker at night... and stayed out till 5AM... actually 5:30... epic! ^_^
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Herro
So mother is a little shocked... I've liked someone who lives far far away for a very long time now (longer than any relationship I've ever had has lasted).... and she KNOWS how fickle I am with boys... so she can't even understand how I have to get over Seth when she can't believe I still like him. She somehow tried to tie it into her new theory that I'm a lesbian, but I pointed out that made the least sense of anything she's ever said, haha...
Also I realized... this whole "getting over" Seth thing... is going to take a lot longer than I thought. I only just fully got over Stefan as of last year (11th grade) when we dated in 8th/9th grade.
Obviously there are different levels of moving on. Within a few months I'll be over him enough to hopefully have another relationship. Within a year I'll be over him enough to hopefully stop thinking about him too much. And within two years, I'll be able to talk to him without any lingering feelings of affection....
Or at least thats how it worked with Stefan (though totally getting over him took like 3 years)
Somehow I get the feeling that if I keep in contact with Seth (unlike with Stefan) my feelings for him may never totally die away.... but they will enough for me to try to find someone else. And hopefully in college I'll find a guy good enough to distract me fully ^_^
I mean he technically DID say... lets temporarily just be friends... but honestly it would be suicide to think of this as anything but permanent. I'm a realist, aim low and when good stuff happens, you'll be pleasantly surprised (instead of constantly being disappointed)
ANYWAY, back to figure skating... also I have no idea why I felt the need to blog this, but yeah, tada?
Also I realized... this whole "getting over" Seth thing... is going to take a lot longer than I thought. I only just fully got over Stefan as of last year (11th grade) when we dated in 8th/9th grade.
Obviously there are different levels of moving on. Within a few months I'll be over him enough to hopefully have another relationship. Within a year I'll be over him enough to hopefully stop thinking about him too much. And within two years, I'll be able to talk to him without any lingering feelings of affection....
Or at least thats how it worked with Stefan (though totally getting over him took like 3 years)
Somehow I get the feeling that if I keep in contact with Seth (unlike with Stefan) my feelings for him may never totally die away.... but they will enough for me to try to find someone else. And hopefully in college I'll find a guy good enough to distract me fully ^_^
I mean he technically DID say... lets temporarily just be friends... but honestly it would be suicide to think of this as anything but permanent. I'm a realist, aim low and when good stuff happens, you'll be pleasantly surprised (instead of constantly being disappointed)
ANYWAY, back to figure skating... also I have no idea why I felt the need to blog this, but yeah, tada?
to say we end The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to
Yes that title is from Hamlet, lol
Okay so guess what guys? I'm somehow in a really good mood. Seth asked me to video chat, to which I was deathly afraid, because I knew it had to be really important.
But actually, it was really good. He apologized for how he's been acting, and then we had a really long talk about our "situation"
In the end we decided (well I knew it was coming but needed to hear him say it) that we should just be friends, still text and talk a little, but definitely be friends.
I know that'll be beyond difficult for me, since every little thing still reminds me of him (seriously, I think I can turn ANYTHING into a Seth moment). But still, I feel 100% better about "moving on" than I did this morning when I was in tears and having a major freak out moment.
So yeah guys, don't worry too much... cuz while it'll still take me a long time to move on, at least now I'm moving on with Seth as my friend, and not my enemy, and it feels really good.
Also, this means no harping on him for any reason, cuz we made up and he said his apologies, so no insulting him to "make me feel better" okay Livia? haha
Anyway, time for dinner...
(Omg, I just realized that unlike the first time I fell in love, this time its ending on decent terms. As decent as you can end any relationship involving love at least, haha)
Okay so guess what guys? I'm somehow in a really good mood. Seth asked me to video chat, to which I was deathly afraid, because I knew it had to be really important.
But actually, it was really good. He apologized for how he's been acting, and then we had a really long talk about our "situation"
In the end we decided (well I knew it was coming but needed to hear him say it) that we should just be friends, still text and talk a little, but definitely be friends.
I know that'll be beyond difficult for me, since every little thing still reminds me of him (seriously, I think I can turn ANYTHING into a Seth moment). But still, I feel 100% better about "moving on" than I did this morning when I was in tears and having a major freak out moment.
So yeah guys, don't worry too much... cuz while it'll still take me a long time to move on, at least now I'm moving on with Seth as my friend, and not my enemy, and it feels really good.
Also, this means no harping on him for any reason, cuz we made up and he said his apologies, so no insulting him to "make me feel better" okay Livia? haha
Anyway, time for dinner...
(Omg, I just realized that unlike the first time I fell in love, this time its ending on decent terms. As decent as you can end any relationship involving love at least, haha)
Monday, February 15, 2010
LOL EMO LOL
Hell yeah I just made my blog emo... haha its hilarious right?
I'll prolly change it on the weekend to something happier... when I feel like it >:3
I'll prolly change it on the weekend to something happier... when I feel like it >:3
Pondering on a post V-Day experience
I think I loved him, I really do...
But its better this way right?
It really must be a past tense verb too... because thinking about it as being over isn't hitting me as terribly as it did before.
Or maybe I'm trying to convince myself to avoid the heartache? Who knows... but I'd rather not think about it... glad I kept my options open...
I just wish I had moved on first (how selfish of me)
And in case my blogger viewing public is wondering... I'm not bitter about it, I don't really blame anyone besides my own disillusions... I realized that I believed in something that was impossible without really acknowledging that I was thinking it. It was this hidden drive that prevented me from moving on... now that I've realized it's there, I can reason with myself as to why such an idea is far too much for anyone in this world to hope for, including me. I'm confident now that my continued declarations to be "moving on" will be far more... realistic (and successful) now.
P.S. Wow... I can't even go back far enough in my blog to find the last time I talked about any boy besides you know who.... ahh when did I get so helpless and womanly?
But its better this way right?
It really must be a past tense verb too... because thinking about it as being over isn't hitting me as terribly as it did before.
Or maybe I'm trying to convince myself to avoid the heartache? Who knows... but I'd rather not think about it... glad I kept my options open...
I just wish I had moved on first (how selfish of me)
And in case my blogger viewing public is wondering... I'm not bitter about it, I don't really blame anyone besides my own disillusions... I realized that I believed in something that was impossible without really acknowledging that I was thinking it. It was this hidden drive that prevented me from moving on... now that I've realized it's there, I can reason with myself as to why such an idea is far too much for anyone in this world to hope for, including me. I'm confident now that my continued declarations to be "moving on" will be far more... realistic (and successful) now.
P.S. Wow... I can't even go back far enough in my blog to find the last time I talked about any boy besides you know who.... ahh when did I get so helpless and womanly?
Final Follow Up
We made the news!!
Demonstration of Love
This is my last update on our Valentine's Day hug action... the day itself (yesterday) sucked so much ass I want to forget all about it... but hey, being on the news is a fantastic trade off! :D
Demonstration of Love
This is my last update on our Valentine's Day hug action... the day itself (yesterday) sucked so much ass I want to forget all about it... but hey, being on the news is a fantastic trade off! :D
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Action 2!
Here is what we did today (at crossgates)
Below
You can see me at :31 (the camera woman makes the comment "get her hair out of the way" cuz my hair is too long, haha)
Also at the very end, 2:20... the video ends with me
Above
You can see me at the very beginning, I'm on the top right next to the store filled with all the painted photos (with the white frames).... My partner and I are standing kinda in the middle of the walk way right in front of the store, haha
At 1:08 I'm right in the shot, zoomed in
Then again at 1:36
At about 1:54 you can see me and my partner putting on our jackets
Yeah, that was a personal shout out to myself, but hey, this was exciting for me, I can't help but love to be seen doing something like this!
Yeay!
Below
You can see me at :31 (the camera woman makes the comment "get her hair out of the way" cuz my hair is too long, haha)
Also at the very end, 2:20... the video ends with me
Above
You can see me at the very beginning, I'm on the top right next to the store filled with all the painted photos (with the white frames).... My partner and I are standing kinda in the middle of the walk way right in front of the store, haha
At 1:08 I'm right in the shot, zoomed in
Then again at 1:36
At about 1:54 you can see me and my partner putting on our jackets
Yeah, that was a personal shout out to myself, but hey, this was exciting for me, I can't help but love to be seen doing something like this!
Yeay!
Albany Queer Rising
So I've been going to these LGBT activist type meetings, a group that wants to actually get things done in the Albany area. We want legal rights for all members of the community, including marriage, work place equality, medically etc
Well now we are officially the second chapter of a group called Queer Rising. The original group is located in NYC, and they mean serious business, check this out
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_VV0LXVfF4c
That's them chained to the marriage license building... and getting arrested. They're really hard core people. Our group is just starting out and a little behind them, but we'll work our way up. We had our first action yesterday (and another today) and this is the result... (check out both videos)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaQ82Nt7mhE&feature=channel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FM-rsLvWWAw&feature=channel
Stay tuned for what happens today!!
This is just me doing my part to spread the word.
P.S. http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000766410976
Well now we are officially the second chapter of a group called Queer Rising. The original group is located in NYC, and they mean serious business, check this out
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_VV0LXVfF4c
That's them chained to the marriage license building... and getting arrested. They're really hard core people. Our group is just starting out and a little behind them, but we'll work our way up. We had our first action yesterday (and another today) and this is the result... (check out both videos)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaQ82Nt7mhE&feature=channel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FM-rsLvWWAw&feature=channel
Stay tuned for what happens today!!
This is just me doing my part to spread the word.
P.S. http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000766410976
Monday, February 8, 2010
Doctors office
Today I went to the doctors and so I got officially weighed... and huzzah I'm 124 pounds! How fantastic :3
The doctor also told me to go to planned parenthood to get birth control... like she actually TOLD me to go there. That's why I love doctors... they want to make you safe and they know sometimes that parents are blinded by what they think and but their children in risk (aka not letting me get birth control). Also you must be thinking, omg she's talking about birth control on her blog? What is this madness! But really haven't I talked about worse before? Haha... anyway
Also, I'm really excited cuz my things from hot topic that I ordered finally came in, including some things for Valentine's Day, woot woot. Now I can finally start figuring out who'll get what! If only I had money to buy a shit ton of roses for everyone, for shame.
Anyway, sorry I haven't blogged in a while, but life has been pretty boring as of yet... today was the first interesting day (for blogging purposes) in a while.
Time to not do more homework! ^_^
The doctor also told me to go to planned parenthood to get birth control... like she actually TOLD me to go there. That's why I love doctors... they want to make you safe and they know sometimes that parents are blinded by what they think and but their children in risk (aka not letting me get birth control). Also you must be thinking, omg she's talking about birth control on her blog? What is this madness! But really haven't I talked about worse before? Haha... anyway
Also, I'm really excited cuz my things from hot topic that I ordered finally came in, including some things for Valentine's Day, woot woot. Now I can finally start figuring out who'll get what! If only I had money to buy a shit ton of roses for everyone, for shame.
Anyway, sorry I haven't blogged in a while, but life has been pretty boring as of yet... today was the first interesting day (for blogging purposes) in a while.
Time to not do more homework! ^_^
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