Does this happen to you?

Do you have a friend who's usually really fun to talk to... but sometimes you just have awkward and sucky conversations? Its killing me that this happens with someone, but I have no idea what to do about it!

Ugh, I'm so frustrated...

P.S. What does it mean when that happens?

Blargh!

So yesterday/today was a combination of some ups and downs...

I had a track meet, which required me to leave 2 hours early from AMC (+)
The bus ride was an hour long (-)
I had a pretty good book to read for the trip (+)
I had to sit around for almost 7 hours until my race (---)
I kicked ASS at my race and set a new PR (personal record) by around 15 seconds (+++)
I hurt really badly from after my race (-)
I got home and some drunken idiots had run into a telephone pole, leaving us with no power (-)
My friend Zach came and got me so I could hang out till the power came back on (+)
The power never came back on until this morning (-)
I got to sleep in AND see Mr. Devine today (++)

So we're at about equal...

Also, the power thing was why I wasn't online at all last night (not that anyone but Edward reads this anyway, lol)

Which is why you're my hero Edward <3
Also, Zach you're pretty cool too

So for the longest time I've loved the school girl look (obviously the sexy kind, not my uniform from school kind) but I've NEVER had a button down white shirt! Now I finally own one, and I love it!! Take a look...

P.S. Yes this is one of my less fun work outfits, lol

P.P.S. YOU KNOW YOU WANT SOME
(lolol, yes this is how I entertain myself)

That is all!

Problems at Work

So yesterday we came across a little problem here at Albany Med. We had a computer guy (though he wasn't IT) come down to try to hook me up to some wireless printer so I could print in color. Originally I tried to do it myself, to no avail and my great frustration.

Well apparently it would have been impossible to hook me up to a printer because I had been borrowing someone else's account. When the man found this out, in fact, he flipped shit. Apparently it was a security breach, and he kept insisting that he could get fired if he didn't report this.

So here I am, freaking out because I'd admitted someone had given me their user name and password to use... thinking I've just gone and gotten my "boss" in major trouble.... so I was a little panicked.

Well, at that point Tonya (the woman in question) came over after seeing my apparently horrified face. She explain that it would be okay, that they'd gotten through MUCH worse working under Dr. Zimmerman (I lol'd at that). I wasn't too reassured, but it certainly was nice to see she wasn't really pissed at me. I had been afraid Tonya was going to blame me and never speak to me again! Ah, the maturity of adults in action.

Well in the end, Tonya didn't even really get a slap on the wrists. She explain that since I originally was only going to be here for less than 3 weeks, she knew by the time I got my own account set up, I'd be gone! So, they set me up with an account that very second, and here I am online with it!

So yeay! All's well that ends well.

We Are Scientists

Okay so if Seth reads this he's probably going to find this hilarious...

I've decided my newest band crush is on Keith Murray of We Are Scientists.

Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt

He was nominated for Peta2's Sexiest Vegetarian award multiple times bee tee dubs
(past winners include: Joss Stone and Chris Martin, lyssa Milano and Frank Iero, Kristen Bell and Davey Havok... AND MORE!)

His middle name is Austin. He was born May 10, 1977 (making him 33)... and his hair has been turning gray since he was 22... but because he's so cool he doesn't dye it :D

Picture time!

Speaking of the Sexiest Vegetarian award... lets take a look at last years male nominees (or at lease the ones I care for)
(Milo Ventimiglia was the winner btw)

Adam Carson (AFI)
Adam Russell (Story of the Year)
Alex Suarez (Cobra Starship)
André 3000
Billy Hamilton (Silverstein)
Billy Martin (Good Charlotte)
Brian Bell (Weezer)
Chris Walla (Death Cab for Cutie)
Christofer Drew (Never Shout Never) OMG WHY DIDN'T HE WIN?!?!?!
Dave Melillo (Cute Is What We Aim For)
Davy Havok (AFI/Blaqk Audio)
Forrest Kline (hellogoodbye)
Frank Iero (My Chemical Romance)
(he won in 2008)
Gabe Saporta (Cobra Starship)
Hunter Burgan (AFI)
Jade Puget (AFI/Blaqk Audio)
Jared Leto (30 Seconds to Mars)
Jeph Howard (The Used)
Josh Bradford (Silverstein)
Keith Murray (We Are Scientists)
(oh heeeeey)
Kevin Bacon
Neil Boshart (Silverstein)
Paul Koehler (Silverstein)
Paul Mazurkiewicz (Cannibal Corpse)
Paul McCartney
Prince !!!
Rob Zombie (how is this man sexy to anyone?)
Ruben Studdard (same as above)
Shane Told (Silverstein)
(I'm starting to think everyone in Silverstein is a vegetarian)
Tim Reece (The Album Leaf)
(^^^^OH HEY KENJI, ARE YOU READING THIS!^^^^)
Tobey Maguire
Tom Higgenson (Plain White T's)
Travis Miguel (Atreyu)
Ville Valo (HIM)


P.S. Prince is a strict vegan *heart*

P.P.S. If you care, here's this year's winnings (actually it seems they do it twice a year)
The World's Sexiest Vegetarians Are...

Delicious Kitty Goodness

So today I brought a delicious Hello Kitty snack to work... it was... so delicious... mmmm

Take a look!

There was a cute little matching game inside the box

Mmm, biscuit-y goodness

Surprise Surprise

Today my romance novel referenced The Scarlet Letter.... omg wtf bbq *insert gratuitous amounts of hearts here*

I really love this author, she's freakin brilliant at writing.

Yup, that is all...

EDIT: My mother has reached a new level of retarded... she somehow has NO idea what 'mhm' means... what!?!

AMC - GOTTA LOVE IT

So I just got out of a meeting with Dr. Zimmerman, the man in charge of my whole project here.

We were going over what I've learned so far and what I'm going to be doing with the knowledge. Basically, Dr. Z is really interested in this field (if exercise can prevent or stave off MCI/AD or cognitive decline in general). So, I'm going to take what I've learned and design a study. And I'm not talking about just writing up a little thing for him to use later. I mean I have to write an intro, hypothesis, rational, study design, method, results, and a discussion at the end. I can't even believe it! This is beyond amazing. This is more than I could have ever asked for.

Dr. Zimmerman said I seemed like I would make a fantastic scientist because I was a "self-starter" when it came to this. I suppose that's true because I really like this topic now so I'm trying my best. He also said he'd love to have me back next year over the summer for a PAID position... OMGBBQWTF?!?!? YES PLEASE! I really really hope that works out.

I then proposed to him that I talk to the volunteer department about continuing my work here into June. He said he'd love the idea. Then he gave me his home number and said he was going to invite me over to meet his family some time! My heart is still racing.

This could be the most amazing opportunity of my life so far. Scratch that, this IS the most amazing opportunity of my life.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to get back to work!

Hourglass figure

The classic "hourglass figure" is 36-24-36 (That being bust, waist, and hips)

After being measured for a dress, I found out I'm 35-27-38
Now that's pretty close to the classic hourglass, excluding the rather small waist (although 3 inches off isn't that bad, eh?). But then I got into looking, and honestly I'm almost glad for what I have... I mean have you ever seen what a real 24 inch waist would look like?

Here are some examples of a real hourglass figure (36-24-36)




Looks creepy and wrong, right? EXACTLY... look at the rest of them!!



You would literally need to wear a corset just to make your waist that small, unless you're about 3% of the population born with a naturally small waist and large hips.



This picture is one of the only slightly attractive ones I could find, but that's only because of the outfit! The 36-24-26 measurement just looks creepy on an actual woman.

I'd take the girl in the middle any day! I think she has the perfect body. She isn't too thin like the girl on the left, or too heavy like the girl on the right. She has just enough fat to be curvy. (although she probably has more than my 35 going on up top, haha)
((for that matter I'd take the girl on the right over the girl on the left))



As an example of an incredibly sexy woman... Angelina Jolie

I'll take her curves over a 36-24-36 any day!

Track Meet

: Too tired to talk... have things to blog about... falling asleep at desk.

Today was the Colonial Council Championships... the boy's school won! It was really exciting. We (the girls) only came in like 9th of 11, lol. But I got a ribbon for the Steeple Chase! I got 6th place, which means I scored some points for my team (only the top team scores).

Oh also, to put into perspective how AMAZING Holy Names is... we got a total of 35 points. They got 140 points... destroying everyone else, including whoever got second (who I'm pretty sure didn't break 100 points).

I'll try to talk about the rest tomorrow cuz I'm about to pass out... buh bye

EDIT: Okay so due to certain circumstances, I'm a little more awake now... so let's talk about the meet.

So the day started off okay. The weather was being a little bitchy, switching between slightly cold and slightly warm. But all in all it was pretty temperate. But, maybe an hour and a half into the meet, it got COLD. I'm talking shivering legs, goose bumps, hide under the blankets cold. I of course hadn't even run yet, so I got the satisfaction of knowing that I'd get to run both my races in this temperature.

By the time I run my 1500, the weather hasn't gotten too bad. I was shivering a little bit when I took my warm things off to race, but it was fine.

By the time I was going to run the Steeple Chase... it was pouring and COLD... very cold... the weather was possibly the most miserable and bad weather I've ever seen at a track meet >:(

Oh well, some could say that hey, I was already drenched before I even made it to the water steeple, lol.

As for how I did, I technically got my best time in the mile, beating a time I've had since indoors with a time of 5:57. And like I told you I came in 6th for the steeple, but I actually had a worse time by like 3 seconds from last time (which is a really bad thing, considering last time was my first steeple chase ever)... definitely something to work on.

Okay NOW I can pass out...

Out with the Old, In with the New

So my old clothes that I had lying around sucked... the ones I was wearing for May Projects. So! I went out shopping and bought a whole new wardrobe... check it

Nightmares

So last night I had such a horrifying nightmare. Now you're going to say I'm a baby and how is that scary... but I swear it is.

So in my dream, my alarm clock was broken, and didn't wake me up on time. I woke up (in dream world) at like 12 pm and started to freak out. I ran around the house, crying and shouting because I had missed way too much and they were never going to take me back. I dunno, it sounds really lame when I type it, but when I woke up I almost vomited. One of my biggest fears is getting myself kicked out of May Projects and not graduating. I know they wont kick me out for being late just once, but in my dream it was totally possible. Bleh that has me in a bad mood, can't even nap now...

Albany Med Photos

I'll probably keep updating this as I take more pictures, so check back every once in a while until I make a new post (that's when I'll stop uploading pictures to this post)

My Office!

This is how I have to look every day

Gettin down to business!

First Full Day at Work!

Okay so how cool is this! At my school, if you don't already know, instead of going to classes in May, we do May Projects. This usually entails some sort of internship or job shadowing. In my case, I'm working on a research project at Albany Med! I show up every day at 9am and leave at 3pm. I feel so legit I can't even be bored!

I'm trying to use my time wisely... although I guess I'm already slacking off if I'm bogging about it right? Haha okay okay I'll keep this short...

What's my research project you're asking? Well, I'm working on trying to find a connection between exercise and the reduced risk for MCI (mild cognitive impairment). Aka, can running every day stave off dementia and Alzheimer's? If it does, I'm charged with possibly finding out what would make up a good exercise routine for the older individuals at risk.

It's not as interesting as it could be, but it certainly is very productive and relevant! Huzzah!

Anyway I'm off to go work, tehe
(although that basically means read medical journals for a few hours)

UPDATE:

OMG, so I just went to lunch, and WOW do they have the most amazing food ever. I got a hummus, feta, spinach, onion, and tomato wrap... beyond delicious. They had whole turkeys and hams, a grill with vegie burgers, fast food type things, sushi, yogurt/pudding/assorted cold desserts, a salad bar, a made to order sandwich counter, and more! I think my stomach can die happy here, haha. Plus, I get $4 off AND a 20% discount for being a volunteer. My whole lunch cost less than $2! (and that included a wrap, a medium drink and a salad)

I did end up sitting alone in the cafeteria, but all the nice people who work in S Building with me suggested I bring my food back here to socialize with the rest of them. Adults want to talk to me! I feel way too old suddenly :P

Just walking down the hallways and seeing nothing but doctors and med students is threatening enough, but now I'm going to be eating lunch in the "break room" with a group of adult hospital employees! What's next, I'll start getting a pay check? I hope this is what my adult life will be like some day...

Mother's Day

So father really REALLY bugged me this mother's day... so I decided to actually use some of the amazing creative juices I had and do something special this year
So here's what I did:

I bought her 11 red roses and 1 white rose... then some weird filler shit... and I put them together in my best attempt at flower arranging.


I also included this little letter

12 Reasons Why I Love You
1. You haven't given up on me yet
2. You let me grow up to be who I wanted to be
3. You gave me so many opportunities
4. You've always encouraged me to do better
5. You've somehow survived all of us for this long
6. You have an unshakable belief in God, and I respect that even if I disagree
7. You're more accepting than I give you credit for
8. You were the best Girl Scout troop leader I've ever had
9. Your dedication to your children is remarkable
10. You work hard at the things you love
11. You have all these little habits that you've passed on to me, so in a way I'll always have something of you to take with me

And number 12, represented by the single white rose
I love you because you're my mother, and that's something no one can take away from me, and something that will never change. Even after these roses die, you'll always have this list to look back to, and I'll always have the memories you shared along with me. Here's a gift for you on the last Mother's Day before I head off to college. And here's to wishing for many more after that.

Tehe, I made mother cry she was so touched. I figure I owe it to her, especially when no one is really giving her any love these days. Success!

Spinning in Circles

Wow, Saturday was one heck of a long day... let me regale you with tales of my misadventures

So Saturday was the Johnstown track meet thinggy... I woke up at 6am to get to school by 8am, and ride the bus for an hour. We arrived at about 9am, and waited for an hour and a half for the track meet to even start. My event, of course, was 41st of 44 events. So, I sat in a tent for hours and hours and hours, hiding from the raging wind and rain (and cold).

It was very unpleasant. One minute it was so windy our tent was knocked down. The next it was so sunny I had to crawl out of my blankets and take off a jacket or two (and yes there was more than one). Then, I had to try to study in the loud tent filled with what looked like a slow moving orgy, or just a pile of cozy dead bodies, either way (that was a cyanide and happiness reference right there, here's the reference pic)

To top it all off, my headphones broke so I couldn't even block them out with music. Eventually (at around 4pm) my race was getting close. Oh and what was my event you might ask? Well, I was chosen oh so nicely by my track coach to run the steeple chase. If you don't know what a steeple is... here's a lil picture for you
That, is a steeple... The race is 2000 meters long, just slightly over 5 laps around the track. For you nonathletic types, four laps is a mile. Can you guess how many steeples there are each lap? Five... there are five of them. If you were wondering what makes steeple chase worse than hurdle races... its because when you run into a hurdle, it moves with your leg so you can keep running. If you don't get over the steeple, trust me in a one on one, I'm betting on the steeple to win. And, of course, just to make things more fun and amazing *cough* they make one a WATER PIT... look


That water pit starts at about hip height and gets less deep the further away from the steeple you land.

So I checked in when they called me, warmed up, then headed to the starting line. Of course, the weather turned bad just as we were getting ready to go. Dark clouds suddenly overtook the sky and a nasty freezing wind started to blow. Yeay me! -_-

Well... lets just say I was terrified of running this race. I didn't like the hurdles and I didn't like the idea of a water pit. But the race started and I got on my way. First hurdle wasn't bad, neither was the second, but as I approached the water pit, I started to panic. I jump over it, and land... HARD... right in the deep end. It was really shocking and I basically stopped moving for a few seconds. The next time around, I fell even worse, twisting my ankle and collapsing to my knees. I was neck deep in the water and it splashed up, completely soaking my head and blinding me. I tried to get up as fast as I could and wipe the water form my eyes, but I was so startled it took me a bit. At that point I was starting to build up a strong fear for these water pit steeples. And of course, to make things worse, the excessive amounts of water caused my shoelace to come untied, and I ran over half of the race in fear I was going to trip on them while trying to jump a hurdle.

But anyway, I finished the race with a not too miserable time and with two girls behind me. I technically broke the school record, but that doesn't mean much since our record was pretty terrible (I ran it in 9:08.5). When my coach was trying to talk to me I was still soaking wet and a little stunned. I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom to put on some dry clothes (which someone was smart enough to tell me to bring along). Speaking of coach, he was so pleased with my time that he said I'll be doing this for the next 4 Saturday meets. GREAT

After the track meet I went to see Mr. Devine (my piano teacher) play a gig at some 18 and over bar. I was, of course, the youngest person there. Oh yeah, and I had to pay $12 instead of $7 because I'm under 21. Anyway, the show was pretty fun, and so was hanging with my friend ZACH THE MOST ATTRACTIVE MAN ALIVE (or so he told me I had to say). Then we went to Denny's for 11pm breakfast! :D

(Zach / Okami)

The bad part is... when I tried to stand up, my ankle hurt so badly I had to hobble. I could hardly walk by the time we got home. This morning, I literally couldn't stand until someone gave me some asprin to numb away the pain. I'm really upset about this, and scared because we have a track meet on Tuesday and Thursday. Both of which are very important meets for me to run REALLY fast in. Shit sticks....

Oh well... time to try to force myself to study AP Chemistry (which I'm really going to fail).

Falling Deeper in the Shit

Carnegie Mellon did NOT accept me into their college. I was pushed back onto the regular waitlist... I'm fucked. There's no chance for me at this point... mother and I have officially given up.

Today was also my AP Calculus BC exam... which sucked, but like I keep telling everyone, I've lost the ability to care.

Tomorrow is my 3rd in a row test... AP English. I can't even handle this shit any more

Today in track I passed out from dehydration, though I'm also assuming it has to do with the massive amounts of stress I'm under.

I almost started crying randomly while I was sitting down in the Pool Lobby doing nothing, waiting for practice to begin. I'm just not cut out for this kinda stress.

Ah fuck CMU, fuck APs, fuck all of that

I'm gunna run away and live in the mountains

You know it's May when

....AP tests have left me so utterly broken I can't even find the pieces

Today I learned I've been thinking of and saying a word wrong for my entire life...

I thought the word chagrin was spelled and subsequently pronounced chargin
ITS LIKE MY MIND WAS BLOWN... when I found this out, I'm actually really upset!

Also, I hate that the past tense of spell is spelled, not spelt... spelled is such an ugly sounding word, and spelt is so eloquent and nice.

*sigh* But seriously, these tests are killing me. Just the other day I was having trouble figuring out the right answer to this integral, till Izzy pointed out I had forgotten to integrate it... I HAD FORGOTTEN TO INTEGRATE AN INTEGRAL... its like forgetting to cut sliced bread and not being able to figure out why it doesn't make a good sandwich.

(also, I keep spelling sandwich as sandwhich, an interesting question of which sand I want to eat I assume, lol)

Seriously, I need it to be exactly a week from now... then all my tests will be over.

Also, I find out if I'm in CMU tomorrow evening... I don't even want to know! :(
*hides*

I've already had my mental break down, I hope it stays at that... I can't wait for summer (even if I hate the season)

NEVER Shout NEVER! Die before you do!

Oh god... oh god... oh god.... I love you Christofer Drew Ingle, you are the closest thing to a God (next to you know whooooo *heart* GW).

Today after my track meet (which I spent with Emmy) I went (with Emmy) to the AP tour 2010 at Norther Lights, featuring Never Shout Never, The Summer Set, Every Avenue, The Cab, and We The Kings....

IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING. We stood up for over 4 hours to watch this show... we were tossed around left and right in a mass of screaming women. We sweated so much our shirts could be rung out... I kinda want to write a story about it.

Holy shit I have no words to explain how amazing and wonderful Christofer Drew is... he is gorgeous, funny, cute, funny, sexy, amazing, and perfect, lol. Well, he can't beat Gee Way of course, but still!! He's pretty damn close. Oh god...

The best part was hearing him sing Emmy and my song... oh man how often do I get to experience that. Too perfect, too perfect *passes out*