Uncomfortable Feelings

I feel so monogamous, and the feeling is weird... Every day I feel less and less willing to mess around with other people, or anyone actually. This has kinda been happening ever since the beginning of the school year. I found myself flirting less and less with the guys at school (cept for one, haha). I dunno, I guess its a good thing, but its obviously going to cause lots of problems and upset people. But this isn't the first time I've drifted to feeling more monogamous... I just kinda hope this time it sticks. I'm sick of drifting from one boy to the next. Its almost painful, and I couldn't stand it much longer, so I suppose this is a good break. I feel like even if I stop feeling the need to be monogamous, I still want to keep more to myself and not flirt around with all the guys. I don't mind being the flirty chick, but I really don't like seeing myself as the one who messes around with all the guys. So yeah... I'll wait and see what happens with that

New Post?

Ugh I feel bad about my sporadic updating of this blog! But I really don't have much I want to share with the general public about my life right now... and I probably wont until Christmas.... I mean obviously ridiculous and amazing things are going on right now, but I can't really talk about it on here for far too many reasons.

With me being on vacation now, nothing is really going on... so I can't say I'll update soon, but if I think of something I'll post it.... sorry this isn't a legit blog guys! >.>

ILU

So I realized something today... well I realized 2 things, but I'll only get into the happy one, haha.

So my friend said this to me today after I made a hilarious and perrrfect sexual joke
"HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA sarah ilu lol"

I dunno, something about a friend saying I love you... makes me really happy, because obviously they don't mean love love, but its a step up from just liking me as a normal friend. As if they now like me enough to specifically show that they like me enough (if that makes sense). It was more clear when I thought it in my head. It made me feel good today ^_^

Okay I can't type much more, Dusty is scratching me painfully for attention, haha...

Gay Marriage Bill Shot Down in New York Senate

(I wrote this article for the school paper, please read and comment)

On Wednesday, December 2^nd the New York State Senate voted on a measure that would make gay marriage legal in New York. After 2 hours of debate, the measure was voted down, 38 to 24. The bill’s sponsor was Sen. Tom Duane, the only openly gay member of the Senate.

Advocates said that some Republicans who were open to the idea voted no because they were fearful of a conservative black lash. Others referenced the bad economy as a reason for keeping many Republicans who may have been sympathetic to the cause from voting for gay marriage, stating their primary focus to be on the fiscal crisis, and not gay marriage.

All 30 Republicans and 8 Democrats voted against the bill. Previously, the bill had been passed 3 times in the Assembly, but rejected in the Senate. Of those who voted no, only Sen. Ruben Diaz stood up during the debate to explain his vote publicly. On the Senate floor he said, "If you put this issue before the voters, the voters will reject it. Let the people decide."

Governor Paterson, who had pushed for the vote in the Senate even though the bill’s fate was uncertain, made a rare trip to the Senate floor to support the bill. He even pledged to sign the bill if it was passed. Other Senators stood before the floor and told their stories, including Sen. Ruth Hassel Thompson, who revealed for the first time that she had a gay brother that had been shunned by her family and forced to live overseas, while her minister sister was opposed to gay marriage. Others took the floor to tell stories of friends and relatives who were gay and had been unable to marry.

Gay marriage opponents were shocked and pleased by not only the win for upholding the sanctity of marriage between a man and a woman but for winning with a larger-than-expected margin. The bill needed 32 votes to pass, but instead failed by 8 votes. Jason McGuire, executive director of New Yorkers for Constitutional Freedoms stated, “Today was a good day for marriage in New York.”

After the vote, Paterson said Wednesday was one of his saddest days in 20 years of public service. Senator and sponsor of the bill, Thomas Duane, expressed his anger and disappointment, stating “I wasn’t expecting betrayal.” Some supporters of the bill saw the whole event in a more positive light. Alan Van Capelle, executive director of the Empire Pride Agenda, and a leading proponent of the bill stated, "We certainly know who are friends. We certainly go to bed tonight knowing more about where our support is, and that's a victory."

Following the vote, protests were held across the state, including one in New York City that night, and one in Albany at the capital the following Thursday. Around 150 people showed up to protest the Senate vote, holding signs and chanting late into the night.

New York is now one of 31 other states that has shot down a gay marriage bill, with Gay marriage being legal in Connecticut, Iowa, Massachusetts and Vermont. A New Hampshire law takes effect Jan. 1.

GAY TREE

I found a gay tree, LOOK..... how faaaabulous

also I WON the debate tournament (for public forum).... won every round in fact! I was pretty amazing *hugs trophy*

also also the dance was beyondddd amazing

p.s. I'm on the phone with seth... he's making me type this lol

Foodly Endeavors

So tonight I wasn't feeling so well, so I decided to see if a little snack would cheer my tummy up. Lo and behold I see the goat cheese I bought the other day sitting in the refrigerator. So, I toast me up some bread (for lack of a single cracker) and cut it into squares. I then spread the cheese on each piece. Its soft like butter, but not creamy. I would compare it to soap shavings (if you've ever carved a bar of soap) in appearances, except slightly more mixed together... so maybe if you tried to squish those shavings back together, haha.

It didn't smell too bad, so I brought it up to my room for a taste! Now I have to say, my face after the first bite was probably a kodac moment. It didn't taste bad, as much as it was the strangest and STRONGEST flavor I've ever encountered. I almost couldn't swallow it, but I couldn't tell why. Like I said, it didn't seam to taste bad, but it was almost so strong a flavor, I couldn't handle it.

Needless to say as you can tell by the picture, I could not rally up enough spirit to finish off the toast. My recomondation to you, try it for yourself... but get the smallest container of goat cheese you can find! XD

I have no regrets, but damn, that flavor is still sitting in my mouth *convulses*

New video

New video uploadededed.... Christmas related... kinda

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46BNPd-pO1Y

DELICIOUS

So I've recently had the most delicious thing known to man... it is meatless chicken... it is MORE DELICIOUS than chicken.... seriously

Its made mostly from egg... I grilled it up and ate it plane.... it was heaven

Thank you, that is all

Programming Class

So basically we were messing around with this program we were given in class. We had to create a 4th Baking account (the first three already being there) so we could mess around with it and see what happens. This blog is basically just a short shout out (look at the name used).... this is only relevant to one person, haha