Herro

So mother is a little shocked... I've liked someone who lives far far away for a very long time now (longer than any relationship I've ever had has lasted).... and she KNOWS how fickle I am with boys... so she can't even understand how I have to get over Seth when she can't believe I still like him. She somehow tried to tie it into her new theory that I'm a lesbian, but I pointed out that made the least sense of anything she's ever said, haha...

Also I realized... this whole "getting over" Seth thing... is going to take a lot longer than I thought. I only just fully got over Stefan as of last year (11th grade) when we dated in 8th/9th grade.

Obviously there are different levels of moving on. Within a few months I'll be over him enough to hopefully have another relationship. Within a year I'll be over him enough to hopefully stop thinking about him too much. And within two years, I'll be able to talk to him without any lingering feelings of affection....

Or at least thats how it worked with Stefan (though totally getting over him took like 3 years)

Somehow I get the feeling that if I keep in contact with Seth (unlike with Stefan) my feelings for him may never totally die away.... but they will enough for me to try to find someone else. And hopefully in college I'll find a guy good enough to distract me fully ^_^

I mean he technically DID say... lets temporarily just be friends... but honestly it would be suicide to think of this as anything but permanent. I'm a realist, aim low and when good stuff happens, you'll be pleasantly surprised (instead of constantly being disappointed)

ANYWAY, back to figure skating... also I have no idea why I felt the need to blog this, but yeah, tada?