Calm Rant

I hate school...I hate hate hate it...not because I have to learn, I'm actually okay with that. I hate school because taking 4 APs is really stressful and I'm already having trouble trying to keep my head level. And I don't want any "you'll be fine" sorta thing from anyone. I took only 2 APs last year, I know what they're like and the work they involve. I know exactly what I've got myself into. I know it'll be possible to do well and I know it will be horrible.

Also I just spent and hour making and then printing out my schedule since the one they gave me got all mashed up...its beautiful btw (pictures below).

PICS OR IT DIDN'T HAPPEN...lol hur's the proof --->


Also also, I've yet to get a letter from you know who....and I'm starting to freak out and mother is saying he's purposely not mailing me and I want to cry about it. Want to, but I'm not going to... too much work to do.

Another point (cuz I'm sick of saying also)... this kid Mark I met randomly at a track meet is now going to our school and I'm beyond excited. I have to hug this kid every time I see him, lol. He's my new favorite academy boy and yes I will be obsessed with him for a while (but don't worry, with exception of Edward, these things never last). Also, someone tried to convince me that Edward was ugly and pock marked and creepy and gross. I got very....VERY...angry. I was threatening to rip faces off, lol (literally).

Second to last... Crazy Loop and all that good music is seriously saving me from a dark dark place, lol. The happy upbeat music picks me up really fast. Although it does so less and less each time I listen. I fear it will not help for much longer, and then what?

Aaaand finally... mother and I really aren't getting along right now. I'm stressed from school and soccer, and she's stressed over her mother and the whole cancer thing. Oh yeah, my grandmother has cancer, and that is really bad cuz I actually LIKE this relative. We're all upset. She keeps losing weight, she's down to like 108. She's like 5'5"....she shouldn't weight that little...she's lost like over 20 pounds. I'm really scared...but ENOUGH SAD TALK....

Back to homework, ha! >.>