Trying

Okay so I'm trying really hard to actually blog blog... like write about shit that goes on in my life. I was reading a friend's blog (someone who has actually been updating very regularly) and I realized I started to like philosophize on here instead of just talk about my day.

I'm not sure if that's better or worse... do you guys like getting to see the inner workings of my mind? Or is it just annoying teenage drivel you'd rather skip over?

Either way I'm going to attempt to start writing normal (and maybe more often) again.

So lets see... today has sucked ass
I had to perform my declamation today. It's a 3 to 5 minute piece on basically anything (mine is kinda a story about this talker chick alexa). My piece is of course 5 minutes and it still isn't memorized at all. Thankfully, I am the master of bullshit and apparently no one realized that about half way through my declamation, I started to make shit up, haha.

I have no idea how I did, just that going almost made me puke... I don't really get how I can be about ready to pass out, yet look totally calm and collected and in character on the outside.

Anyway, that started my day off badly. But to further that, I realized I had a CRAP LOAD of homework I didn't do... all of which I was pretty sure was going to be turned in. I spent every free second of the day trying to get that stuff done. Of course, after ruining my constitution with more stress than I probably felt all junior year, I find out NEITHER class is collecting the homework, to be... "nice" to us. I flipped... not... fucking... okay.

I don't think I've been getting enough sleep lately, it isn't helping with the angst.

Other stuff went wrong, but I really don't feel like recounting how miserable the day was (I'm trying to get over it). Anyway, life is beyond stressful, and yet hardly interesting at all, a bad combo. I just can't wait to get to college... I can hopefully have more luck there

P.S. Mr. Devine promised to go out to lunch and shit with me once I graduate :3